Dec. 14 Psalm 40 Christine Woodward
Psalm 40 resonates really well to me and my life. There have been so many times in my life that I know I should be thankful for what I have, but I feel like I am still trudging along and not making much progress. I am waiting for God to tell me what to do and I hear nothing. I know God is there and I know he is carrying me at times, but sometimes I need more. This year has been especially difficult for me with losing my mother. I am happy she is in heaven and I have another angel, but I still hurt. Most people do not know that I had a strained relationship with my mother for most of my life, and when I decided to forgive her I was able to have a new relationship with her. It took many years and lots of prayers to find that forgiveness. God delivered me from the hate I carried to a much better place. I was able to have a positive relationship with my mom for the past 12 years. I was able to help take care of her at the end, which was an honor and very laborious. I thank God often for my time with my mom, but I still pray for God to deliver me from my pain. It’s okay to love and thank God but still need a bit more. It’s okay to ask God for help. Sometimes God sends us a church family to help us heal and remind us that we will always have a family who loves us.
Lord, I am here and I am in need of you. Lord, please help me and deliver me from my pain. Thank you for listening to my cries. Thank you for lifting me up when I am in need. Thank you for loving me every day.